Different, distance paths. =4th entry=

WE MIGHT BE DISTANCE APART,BUT NOT IN OUR HEARTS.

It’s a Monday, so why are the skies so gray?

I was happily painting your t-shirt bearing in mind that the reason for it was to reply what you made me on my last birthday. But all happy thoughts turned emotional when I had to write you something. It only took the first word for me to pour out. I stopped at “dear”. The rest of the time was spent staring at the piece of yellow paper I’ve nicely cut and decorated, my hands trembling while I wipe off what felt like icky salty tears that streamed down my cheeks. I don’t remember the last time I cried so massively except Rompin (the night you’ve been such a sweetheart for sticking by me, continuously advising and having my back right up till now)- but this, is a lot worse. So I cried in solitude thinking how life would turn out come Monday. I cried knowing that I wasn’t ready to let there be a missing piece in my life and let distance bring us apart. I’ve known you forever to let you go; we’ve known you forever to let this circle we built on such a strong foundation of friendship to lose one backbone.

It has always been easy, simple and sweet. One of us could be so down in a particular week and the following weekend we’d make a point to meet up and let everything out. Ask every single person in this little circle of mine, we’ve each had our down moments and most of the time everything would turn okay after seeing each other. Let there no be conversation, it’s the company that matters most. Goodbye is the hardest part when you’ve grown too attached. I hate how time flies too quickly. Sometimes I wish everything could just pause for me to take a deep breath. But I can’t do that, neither can you or anybody. If adulthood is about seeing people take a different road then I’d trade for childhood anytime.

So I sit here in silence not knowing where to move next. It’s going to be very different not having you around, with no one left for me to text every single effing day (trust me we’re good at this) and complain to and no one to frequently spend time with. Better still, nobody left for me to tag on facebook (yes I contribute to your 10000+ photos a lot okay). You play a great part in my life and I’m glad we’ve come this far so lets keep this friendship flowing till eternity. I’m very PROUD of you and I hope you know that; we all are in fact. You’re a strong girl.

To my lifelong support system Syida, this one’s for you. I LOVE YOU. I love you girls just the same; now lets take care of each other. :)

Till next June, am already counting down!